We give up

bring me
something
a little easier
a little less work
i have too much
to do
as it is
i give up
on you
on me
on us
there
easy.
i am relieved
i have to admit
even though
i know
that with a little work
we would have made it
we have the
essentials
we are short
on the accoutrements
the embellishments
of love
the hugging
the kissing
the fucking
that sort of intimacy
needs work
we just met
for christ's sake
jesus.

I fell...

into a fantasy
she said
it feels weird
he said
maybe
i know you
from the
inside out
and this
feels foreign
she said
exactly
he said. weird.